Jan 6, 2017

This is the word I have chosen to be my guide this year.

After spending the last few weeks reflecting on 2016 and figuring out what I would like 2017 to be, I have finally surrendered to this word. I say surrender because it has haunted me for days all the while I was rejecting it! Like a really annoying fly that keeps tickling your forehead and all you want to do is to squish it… I didn’t want to settle for it and looked for synonyms but none of them felt as right as that one.

I don’t like what discipline sounds like. It rings harsh and totalitarian but I was looking at it from the wrong angle.

Discipline is also a choice of living in order to achieve results. No one becomes truly successful in anything without the discipline to plough through thick and thin.

Lack of consistency is my downfall. I go head first in anything I attempt, full of enthusiasm and passion. I barely rest. I give it all.

Then things around me start to collapse. The laundry accumulates, the kids need to eat, the dog needs to be taken out, I neglect loved ones and friends, my inbox fills up and I begrudge all these things for trying to stop me from doing that one particular thing (insert passion of the moment) I love.

But soon enough I become overwhelmed because I hardly ever rest during that time and there is so much to catchup on.

It is my fault, I create the situation. I don’t stop when I need to, to recharge, to give the people and my surrounding the attention they need.

The overwhelm turns into disgust and I let go of my dream, until it hits me again with the same force next time and I do it all over again. I work in bursts when I should aim for endurance.

Last year I decided to take a break, I was at burn out level. I wanted to do nothing else than looking after my kids (part of the year I home-educated them), looking after our home and creating whatever I wanted whenever I wanted, without goal or agenda other than enjoying it. I was able to do just that and feel most grateful for it.

In that time I have learnt many things. Not just new skills but a lot about myself as well. I was able to figure out a bit more of who I am, where I struggle or even fail and why: discipline.

I am not disciplined enough, that easy. Anything shiny grabs my attention and I get distracted super easily.

So I am embracing my word.

Whatever I do in the coming year will be sprinkled with discipline.

Discipline to make plans and follow them through.

Discipline to stay on course until I reach my goal.

Discipline to look after my health and fitness.

Discipline to keep clutter out of our home and be organised with all the things I dislike (laundry and meal plans I am looking at you).

Discipline to take consistent actions and to focus on my goal, even when all I want to do is try something new.

Let’s see how it goes…

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